I have been spending a lot of the last couple of years painting the lost homes of others. I spent a lot of time wondering why people could ever part with such special places. The circumstances are many, I have learned, and now I get to experience them first hand.
The family cottage of over 45 years is being put up for sale.
It is one of those things where my history is inextricably linked, and yet, I have no control over the outcome and must watch it go. Its loss is reawakening the losses of family connected to it and the shared history whose life is somehow dimmed by a kind of vanishing. It is a difficult change to accept.
The view from the highest point on the property – one of the highest points on the bay – is so spectacular it has been the subject of previous paintings that have remained, fortunately, in the family. It is a place I spent many hours with my Grandfather. I felt so big being able to climb the steep rocks.
Now, I must go, collect what I can carry, and soon abandon the place of my best childhood memories.
I am planning to take a formal hiatus from the blog and give myself a chance to sort some things out, go inside, and do a little bit of learning. I have 3 paintings at the easel along with Crystal’s Room – a Livingstone/Stephen’s, a Cooper and St. Stephen’s. I want these to be the best I have ever done. I want all of the emotion I am experiencing to be reflected in them and, perhaps, one or two of my own when I am ready. Many of you have commented on the depth of emotion in my paintings. I need the time to gather the energy to inject that. It takes a lot out of me, I have discovered. I have also discovered that I would rather show only a few paintings than many of lesser depth. I need some time to focus away from what has been my obstacle and rediscover the joy I draw from my art and from creativity in general.
So, to gather that energy, I am going to formally take a 6 – 8 week break from the blog and most of my other on-line projects. I will return with paintings, stories, an idea of where I plan to go from here, what will change and what I have learned – maybe even some new and interesting things I have tried. Either way, I know that what I come back with will be the things I best love to share and, perhaps, less of a plan and more of a Life.