It has been a busy month of entertaining and work around the house. The highlights being great company, magnificent art at the Cowboy and Western Heritage Museum, country drives and that last room in the house getting painted. The teal and shock orange in the guest bathroom are finally gone…
And so are a few other things.
There is the realization of a deep personal change in my inner geography. The well worn paths seem somehow unfamiliar and even undesirable. The things I was usually comfortable doing often didn’t work. I have been hanging on to what I no longer need and feel ready to let go.
I accept that I am not the same person that left home.
Transformation comes in little earthquakes and it is the series of earthquakes put together that constitute a change of inner geography. The 1400 mile change in outer geography has just been one of the latest earthquakes to hit my world. I don’t think that one can move away from the only place one has ever known and not change. You have learn to trust yourself – something I have been doing more and more.
I am trusting myself to navigate these little earthquakes and make something out of the new landscape they leave in their wake. There is tremendous energy and freedom in experiencing the change in landscape. But once we see it, we can never again un-see it. We are forever changed by the knowledge. I think that is what is meant by the expression “You can’t go home again”.
I have no idea what is coming, and for once in my life, I am really OK with that – excited really. There is no plan, no clear road ahead, only ripening wheat fields of possibility. I can see, now, that I am ready to accept the coming changes, whatever they are. I feel comfortable with letting go of the wheel for a while and seeing where I end up.
So – Changes are coming to the blog. Not sure yet what or when. But like everything else in my life – they are coming and I am really looking forward to the trip.
I have started another little blog dedicated to writing. There will be images but what makes it different from this one is that the images will be the support. If you are so inclined, visit the “Moments” blog and read “The Colour of Memory“.